Morning Coffee

I feel like as a writer I narrate my life as I go. In my head that is. This past month has been a slot of bad luck as in no sales finding myself alone with no food,no gas money. At David’s Tent the worship event God told me he knew of my disappointments. I woke up this morning to finally be excited to a decent check I couldn’t go one more day without money or food and something happened .85 cents is glaring at me in my account. Where is my direct deposit? It’s every Wednesday night for almost 2 years. As I lay and write this I wonder why God. I’m sure it will come maybe a glitch in the system but honestly my entire life is a glitch. So bad I have nicknames for my bad luck. A promised breakfast before school with my daughter to go out was very exciting idea last night, how will I tell her the news. Sometimes I don’t even feel like praying but I know God is here he told me. But what is the purpose is hardship, hardship that never ends. I need to search out the answer.

Things have been rough this month it’s been slow at work . I sat on Thursday with a dollar in my bank account . It’s never ever been this bad . I’ve basically sold nothing in weeks how will I find food or gas . My last 3 checks were awesome but not this one and certainly not the next . This is crazy. As a single mom we run out of recourses . And some times hope . Sometimes we are rich and there’s those times we have nothing . Where is God I wondered ? As I laid in bed depressed and defeated which is not me but really no way out , I heard something in the kitchen I thought Michelle had maybe come home I checked no one was there . ( strange ) I laid back down to watch Lucifer on Netflix I later picked up Raigan from school and made her dinner . I got a text from my manager telling me I could go on company’s fishing trip I been wanting go all year but I had a dollar and my phone is about to be turned off . I thought what has my life turned into ? Is it really this bad right now ? I ...

This blog is only for my accounts of my terrible luck that happens on a daily or weekly basis. Today I called the bank once again on the check they held for over 2 weeks the guy at the bank finally agreed to give us a 100 of it . I rushed to ATM to get my money and as I put my card in and it was processing my card got stuck so no money no card !!! Oh my goodness

Sitting in the parking lot at work 2.5 hours early I’m going to write this first before I go in I started this blog because my luck is so bad no one can even believe it . So I decided to document my stories as the weeks go by maybe it can bring some laughter or maybe you can pray over the curse on my life. It seems like no matter how prepared I am things go wrong terrible wrong. Like  I’m in a movie . So this is it coffee with Amy. 3 days ago I was blessed to finally move I found movers through u haul . I suspected they would turn out just fine . They text told me I didn’t need a truck or u haul they would take care of everything . I text all month making sure everything was the case due to my ( luck ) On the morning of the move I woke up at 4 am to be ready for the movers at 7 am . At 7 am they didn’t show nor at 8 am or 9:30 am they finally arrived 15 min til 10 am and asked me where my truck was ? I was like what do you mean ? He said you need a truck if you don’t I’ll move y...

Maybe we all have secret prayers I have a prayer list I write out every morning most not for my morning blog. As I wait for my movers who are 2 hours late I can say I pray for things that may not be apart of Gods plan for me . Like God I want to be married by 42 I’m getting old and wrinkly. God I want the salary position at my job I’m getting tired . God I would love to do missionary work please open a door . But what is Gods will vs our own as we slave away every day . God I want to live at the ocean . I want my kids to love you God. I want to be healed and love my enemies and to show Gods love . I strive for these things but we never know what Gods purpose is as we wait on God . What will this year bring ? What will it bring by age of 42? We will see

Uncertainty looms over me like a shadow. I realize I’ve grown as a woman and as a child of God. I share these things because maybe your in the place I was in before or where I am now. I only got here due to someone speaking truth into my life . Not even a year ago my roots were dead and I didn’t know how God was going to renew me. All I knew is I was a mess and I was angry and it felt justified , I didn’t know how to heal or forgive or further more how to not control everything around me, I was bound and needed much freedom . But how? They say the Bible is living word . It replaces the lies the world has us to believe, so I began to read the truth and get prayer . It took me a long hard road to say God here I trust you with my pain, my vengeance, my everything. Wow it wasn’t as easy as I wrote it.  But I’m newly planted with new roots . Satan will come to destroy me with lies but now my identity is in Christ so I stand firm in him and what a difference it makes ! It really is spi...

I’m starting a new blog something different something chatty. Something daily. News worthy maybe. This past few months I’ve had some rare occasions of a mad man in El Pollo Loco share my booth and have me call 911. A road rager chase me and Raigan down at near midnight block us in a cold a sac and stare in my window with out blinking even as I called 911. Or my near death experience the very next day with a near head on collision with a high speed chase this isn’t even the beginning. This was all in one week.  There is a certainty my dear friend Brian says that I am cursed as a few months ago a raccoon took out the whole front end of my car. Or after paying movers two days before I move my friend flaked. These are normal tales of my every day life and I wish I was joking and Brian once again laughs as he tells me I shouldn’t leave the house he may have a point. A witch may have cursed my life as I think of it a few months ago 400 dollars went missing from my wallet at Knotts but it...