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What if I “ Can’t “

 As a single mom I can’t afford to call out sick or to put myself first . I spend 12 hour days at work trying to hustle every day to pay rent to pay bills . It’s a constant struggle. 


When your alone there is no emotional support it’s just me and the harsh world praying to the Lord above to save us every month . 


Although I’m a pretty bad ass person who works hard has epilepsy and can be in a hospital all night and still show up for work I’m beginning to feel burn out from life. 


I need a break , I feel like I can’t do it any more . I’ve given up every single thing that matters for my job so I can pay the  bills . Is it worth it ? No . Do I have any other choice ? No . 


My chances of winning the lottery are slim . So how do I make it better ? How do I fit in the gym where I used to go 3 times a day but now I’m to tired and I need to see my daughter on my spare time . How do I have time to write or to even go to church . 


What about a relationship ?!!! 


I’m 46 my life belongs to my job . I have to find a better way . 

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