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Times Of Trouble

 Sometimes people will tell the craziest lies about you or treat you very badly , some will be out to destroy you and your character . I’ve had this happen to me recently and I’m reeling in pain , because the lies are so off base. How do I fix enemies ? How do I change THE enemy ? 


I can’t . I’ve cried , I’ve lost sleep trying to figure out the answer , in the end there is nothing I can do . I pride myself on my integrity and my love for others . Am I threat to my enemies ? I guess I’ve never given myself credit for who I am , but maybe I do . Why else do they come for me . 


It’s kind of funny because the person who told me the lies they believe about me , said , come on Amy you’re so popular with everyone you talk to everyone . The reality is every day I feel alone if only this person knew no one calls or text me when I’m home . I’ve also gotten rid of toxic people so my circle is so small a few friends . 


It’s kind of funny when they said that being I’m the one who is left out . I think the point of this post is you can have a circle of enemies around you   Just stay strong keep being you . Believe in God to fight your battles 


The Bible says to have no fear 365 times . So I’m not going to . There are bad people in this world just be a good one ! 

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