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It’s April 14. I don’t even know what to think except if I was honest and it’s my blog I can be as honest as I want I think this whole quarantine is bull shit self induced political scam of corruption.
Secondly I’m not going to walk around in panick I’m a girl who has lived through horrific things and come through because the Lord saved me Amen . I’ve literally faced death eye to eye so many times I’m immune to its charm. This is no understatement or over exaggeration and what I go through with my heart and seizures is way worse so here I am . What I am going to say is that I being one of integrity has taken the fall for bad people who drug my name in the mud due to there lack of character and if my life ends the truth is at 41 did it matter ?

Hell no . Pardon my French . I love and I’m kind and I don’t lie and I put others first even enemies . I love the Lord and God has saved me . I feel like evil peoples true colors always come out eventually I never need to do anything and I don’t need them as friends either . Love me or leave me . People have issues but they are not my issues . Keep your true friends close .

Follow Gods word his word is the truth. People claim to be Godly but have a hateful heart twards there neighbor or there president or who ever .

I’m no dummy just because I’m quiet and listen . It’s funny how many guys will hit on you but can’t carry an intelligent conversation . They say why am I single ?

The world is full of counterfeit people but the key is to never ever stop being a loving you . Never compromise who you are for any crowd .

I’m not scared of the virus or what’s next or my future or my enemies . Because Jesus is in control .
Amen

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